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So I have tried to journal how I have been feeling these last few days, well maybe its been a week. I am so damn tired of shit

My first internet blog after I commited facebook suicide today.

I am very new to blogging. Blogging is something I have tried to attempt before but I could not get used to letting go of pen and paper and saying hello to my laptop everyday. Now I think I am ready.I need anonymous followers instead of the judgemental "friends" on facebook. I have never thought about sharing my real feelings with the world, atleast not yet. I know that I planned on maybe sharing my journals (the teenage triumps that I thankfully documented) when I finally find what it is I am looking for in life, which feels like it could be forever until that day.

Now, I am a mom of a 21 month old, a fiance and a starving artist. By the way, I am 22 years old... turning 23 in February.

Oh... who the hell am I talking to. I mean really, someone explain to me how to gain followers who want to hear what I have to say. Or should I just write like I am talking to someone or write like no one is listening? What are the rules of blogging? Because personally I am not one to gain happiness by holding anything back, even though the truth hurts... I have no more room to supress anything from this day on. lol.
I am hoping that by blogging I can release some of the past that still lives inside me but at the same time live each day like it's my last.

Bye to facebook, facebook to me seems like the devil. The ego manifests itself into the site, sucking every ounce of feelings inside of you within a matter of just looking at one persons' status update. What is the big competition anyway? I commited facebook suicide today... Just hoping I don't log back in, in a week.

I hope I figure out blogspot soon  because it seems a little more complicated than a notebook & pen.